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May. 21st, 2010

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Nothing left, I'm done. Sorry i wasn't stronger.

Mar. 21st, 2010

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Ireland's only weekly goth-industrial-ebm-alternative club - homepage and news (finally back) - Domi

Ireland's only weekly goth-industrial-ebm-alternative club - homepage and news (finally back) - Dominion

Jan. 2nd, 2010

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The boring year of my life 2009


1) Was 2009 a good year for you?
was good and bad, ending better than it started.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Getting paid to see Depeche Mode :P

3) What was your least favourite moment of the year?
money matters

4) Where were you when 2009 began?
party at luanas house in rathgar

5) Who were you with?
friends

6) Where will you be when 2009 ends?
Carrickmacross

7) Who will you be with when 2009 ends?
?

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2009?
i never make any.

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2010?
To be me, spent the last year running around too much to be myself.

10) Did you fall in love in 2009?
still in love.

11) If yes, with who?
Luana

12) If yes, do they know?
I hope bloody well hope so.

13) Are you still in love with them?
yep

14) You regret it?
At times, but not now.

15) Did you have a breakup in 2009?
yep, more than once.

16) Did you make any new friends in 2009?
yes

17) Who are your favorite “new” friends?
don't do favorites

18) What was your favorite month of 2009?
not sure.

19) Did you travel outside of Ireland in 2009?
No which i plan to chage this year

20) How many different countries did you travel to in 2009?
0

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2009?
Yes but not though death, just contact and then the friendship, my fualt

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yes

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2009?
district 9 and lesbian vampire killers

24) What was your favourite song from 2009?


25) What was your favourite album from 2009?


26) How many concerts did you see in 2009?
one

27) Did you have a favourite concert in 2009?
Depeche mode

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2009?
no not that much at all.

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2009?
not one

30) Did you do anything out of character in 2009?
alot of things, the hole year was out of character.

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
not thing to be ashamed of

33) What was the worst lie you told someone in 2009?
nothing to lie about.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2009?
you'd have to ask them

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2009?
yes

36) How much money did you spend in 2009?
not much hadden got it to spend.

37) What was your proudest moment of 2009?
being in "The Tudors"

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009?
the whole year.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009 and change something, what would it be?


40) What are your plans for 2010?
be myself more, move to London

41)What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
broke up with someone again and got back together with them (more than once)

42)What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
like to travel more.

43)What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
seeing depeche mode, something i had wanted for a long time

44)Did you suffer illness or injury?
no

45) What was the best thing you bought?
nothing really, no money this year

46) Whose behaviour merited celebration?
all my friends for putting up with my relationship

47) Whose behaviour made you appalled and disappointed?


48) What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Seeing Depeche Mode

49) What song will always remind you of 2009?
no song really, didn't have time to sit and listen to music

50) Compared to this time last year, are you richer or poorer?
richer thank god.

51) What do you wish you’d done more of?
spend more time with friends,and travel

52) What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying about money.

53) What was your favourite tv programme?
dollhouse and spooks

54) Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
no

55) What was the best book you read?
no time for new books this year.

56) What was your greatest musical discovery?
no time for discovery

57) What did you want and get?
a full time job again and now i have it.

58) What did you want and not get?
to travel

59) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
few drinks with friends, 32

60) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
less drama in my relationship.

61) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
take me as i am, i have more important things to worry about.

62) What kept you sane?
i have no idea what keep me sane.

63) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Dita

64) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
you need to put the time aside for friends


Well thats the end of one shity, lonely Chirstmas and New years out of the way.

Oct. 16th, 2009

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So in the end i couldn't go and do The Tudors, why because i'm an idiot. No petrol in the car and as i live up here in the middle of no were, no such thing as 24 hour petrol stations. really pissed off!!!!!


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Oct. 15th, 2009

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The Tudors

Just got a call from "The Tudors" again, but have to be there for 6:15am. then i have to go to work at 11pm for the hotel here in Monaghan. Going to be a very long day, but it'll be fun.


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May. 21st, 2009

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An Idea for the Start of a Stroy

Must stop writing it hurts (and being shit at it doesn't help).

Like many Sally had run for London and its temptations, from the small town and its anonymous abyss. Only to find its easier to become unnamed and lost in a mass, the brightness of the lights in a city made her no more illuminated than before. Tonight she found herself once more lost in the sea of people until she found that she was lost in the darkness of the streets alone and with an unknown anxiousness.
The eyes now following had found her an hour ago, watching, relishing with desire, he's stare had followed her last walk amongst the living. Having constructed her forthcoming event, he know her future as no one else could.
He had waited so long not for the right moment, but to savour the fear which had led him to his pray, that bitter taste in her throat which filled his lunges with a sweet taste of anticipation.


She saw his eyes strip her, she could tell he wasn't striping her to the flesh beneath her clothes but be-on, to bone or even her soul. If rape was on his mind it was only the rape of her soul.



 
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Delusions of a Broken Mind

So the creative mind has returned, its taken long enough. First the painting and now the writing, as for the painting i have started one painting and already I'm planing the next two and sketching for them. One of these will be a self portrait, but how i see my inner self (at least that's the idea). the second is well used and  done idea of werewolves, its the painting of fur I want to challenge myself with. Oh there's also the painting of  frozen_amaranth  which I said I'd do.

And as for the writing below is some old and new, something feels right about these.

Abuse
The scares hidden by paint,
and a childhood spawned
She shows her pain,
with all the emotions of hell.
Trust thrown to the pits,
and wonderment lost to all.
Watching hell's fire in her gaze,
her eyes fall and yet they flow.
Let her mercy wash over me,
drowning in her forgiveness.
Can you see her sainthood.

Real
Is Madness real,
or do we just fall short of our sanity.
Do our minds trick us,
or
do we trick those around us.
Do our thoughts betray us,
or free us.

Is Love real,
or are our hearts just hiding our lust.
Do our bodies obey us,
or do we succumb to its inevitability.
Do our desires betray us,
or keep us true.

Is Life real,
or is the world figments of mass delusions.

Do our needs for significances drive us,
or do we stubble through reality.
Do our perceptions blind us,
or guide us.
 

Lost nights
I have wondered for such nights where wisdom is found,
And thoughts made real.
Where sense is made,
And decisions proclaimed.

I have longed for such nights where fear washes away,
And madness falls.
Where sorrow fades,
And pains are easied.

Yet all I find on such nights is the absents of thought,
Followed by the delusions of a broken mind.
 
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May. 20th, 2009

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Plans For The year

So I've decided to list the things I plan to get done/do in the rest of the year.
  1. I'm planing to put on some kind of art exhibition with some friends alasca78 , and endon_neu. The idea is to get a couple of other people in on this and if I can get everyone together i'd like to do a group piece as a center piece. Planning to set it up at the end of the year, I have two other friends looking for the space at the moment and then setting a date so i have to do it, like it or not (this way I will have to finish the work I've started).
  2. M'era Luna in August is the thing to sort out, loved it some much last year you have to go. Plus there you bands going I have always wanted to see.
  3. WGW in October as i missed going in April due not getting paid from my job, its been 11 years since I've been there and i miss the place.
  4. A weekend in London at some time, missing Camden.
  5. In the summer i want to go to a Masquerade Ball again.
  6. Start doing photo shoots again.
  7. Doing some acting again.

Hopefully I'll want to do more than this, but this should get me started.

May. 6th, 2009

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Setlist 18 April

My setlist from DJing at Dominion on 18 april

DJ Pete aka Fallendemon 12:00 - 1:00

Apoptygma Berzerk - Kathy's Song
VNV Nation - Saviour
Star Industry - Nineties
The Prodigy - Fire Starter
Combichrist - This Shit Will Fcuk You Up
Mindless Self Indulgence - Shut Me Up
Rammstein - Amerika
Depeche Mode - Walking In My Shoes
Wolfsheim - Heroin, She Said
Bauhaus - She's In Parties
Siouxsie And The Banshees - Spellbound
Scary Bitches - Lesbian Vampires From Outer Space

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Mar. 25th, 2009

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Some New Art

Started this hopefully finish it in a week or two.





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